Archive for July, 2008

Uhibbu tarannum

Hari ini, status di YM saya berbunyi ” Uhibbu Tarannum” atau maksud dalam bhs Melayu, saya suka Tarannum. Kenapa tiba2. Sebab saya jadi rindu dengan kelas tarannum saya. Kalau lihat di TV 9 skrg, setiap hari ada kelas Tarannum Murattal. Seronok betul dengar mereka baca. Belajar dalam TV je la saya. Sebab lepas ni saya dah tak ikut kelas Tarannum sebab saya ingin fokus pada Kelas Tahfiz yang insyaAllah. Kemudian semasa dengar Usrah bersama Ustz Fatima bersama artis jemputan Mawi, lagi la buat saya suka dengan tarannum. Sedap betul Mawi baca. MasyaAllah. Surah Al-Waqiah kalau tak salah yang dibaca. Amalkan lah surah Al-Waqiah setiap malam dan solat Dhuha, insyaAllah dimurahkan rezeki.

Hari ini hari Khamis, jadi ada Forum Perdana Hal Ehwal Islam. Ust Syahrin as moderator, Dato’ Nooh Gadut, Ustz Sh.Hayati, dan Ust Kipli sbg panelist. Tajuk forum ialah Rahmat Allah.  Tapi ceramah ni rakaman je, dalam bulan Ramadhan. Perbincangan berkisar Rahmat Allah. Ciptaan Allah untuk kita berfikir. Dari dulu saya selalu terfikir, bagaimana dengan kejadian Allah ini, kita jadi berfikir dengan Rahmat Allah. Cuba fikir, air sungai yang Allah beri, mengalir. PAda sesetengah orang berfikir, dapat lah mengairkan tanaman. Sesetengah pula fikir, boleh jadi empangan hidrolik untuk elektrik. Simple kan. Baru air mengalir. Boleh tercipta ilmu engineering, ilmu matematik, fizik, pertanian, dan sebagainya. Semuanya untuk kita berfikir. Kalau nak diikutkan, tiada masa sebenarnya untuk berangan dek terpikirkan nikmat2 Allah dan kejadian2 untuk kita fikirkan

Kemudian Ust Nooh Gadut diberi soalan, “Mengapa manusia, setelah diberi peringatan, seperti Tsunami, BAnjir, dan sebagainya, tetapi masih ingkar kepada Allah?” Maka Ust pon jawab ” Kerana 3 Perkara: 1)Tidak mendapat Hidayah Allah 2) Mungkir sewaktu alam Roh 3) Lalai dengan nikmat Allah. Nauzubillah. Semoga kita tak ditempatkan dalam golongan ini.

Mungkin ada yang akan berkata, tak dapat Hidayah Allah la, macamane nak berubah. Teeettt..Wrong perception there. Hidayah Allah diberikan memang untuk orang yg diingini, tetapi jangan lupa, kita yang kena terus mencari. Mencari dengan Zikrullah, kalau malas nak dengar ceramah, paksa jugak, sebab mungkin di situ Hidayah dapat dicari..

Ingat Allah sentiasa, baik duduk, berdiri, baring.  Baik dengan berzikir, baca Al-Quran, dan solat. IAllah, apabila dalam kesusahan, Allah akan ingat kepada kita. Wallahu a’lam

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assalamualaikum,

Wow! seriously what a long hiatus. Well I was sick for almost 2 weeks. It was the most worst experience of fever. I had typhoid fever and Denggue Hemorrhagic Fever. Both were like killing me slowly. At first i thought it was only usual fever that i always had. But then after 5 days and no symptoms of getting better at all, I went to Hospital for check up. Actually I sensed something not right since I had ‘panas-sejuk’ demam, plus,  I had joint pain, and the fever didn’t even regress after taking Paracetamol.

So there i made my decision to go to the hospital. And I only did it after taking my Neurology 2nd Assessment Exam. Pheww. Fortunately I did take the exam. If not I might have to extend my semester. I dun’t even care at that moment whether i could answer the exam or not. I really can’t think. Headache plus fever. I hate it.Really. Because I know I could do better. But it was Allah’s fate for me. I really thank Allah for giving me this Ujian.

Back to the check up and laboratory exam made by the Drs, I was diagnosed as might having DHF(Denggue). Then the doctors gave me some Paracetamol, Flu and cough pills( Which were not necessary, which i dunno why they prescribed me that drugs). So the next day, I was urged by my frens to do the blood test once again due to awareness of me having DHF. And guess what, my platelet or thrombocyte dropped from 156 to 61. The normal platelet is usually 150-450×10^9 per liter. So low isn’t it. The doctor asked me, whether i wanted to be warded or not. And I said “No. I don’t want to be warded”. Haha.. I must be insane. I told the Drs that I was about to go back to Malaysia for my holidays. So the Drs said, alright then, because it is patient’s right to choose whether to be treated or not.

That night actually I couldn’t sleep at all. I was thinking I might die due to DHF. I did mengucap 2 kalimah syahadah dengan sangat bersungguh before I went to sleep. I remembered Allah soo much. Thinking I am not a pious slave at all. All the sins I done. The next day, I asked Aqilah to send me to the hospital once again and to be warded. Arghh..That was the second time me being warded. The first time when me had accident on Ramadhan about 6 years ago.

I was warded for about 4 days. I was then being diagnosed as having both DHF and typhoid. Instead my body losing its weight, I was having hepatomegaly. Diarrhea summore. Urghh..Baru tau hepatomegaly tu camaner rasanye. I really hate routine blood examination. My blood vessels are sooo hard to be found by the nurses. I hate to get infused because I can’t move freely and it makes u pee a lot due to lots of fluid being inserted to ur body. I hate people have to look after me even though they have lots of work to do. I hate my money being spent on expensive treatments. Damn expensive treatment

As I was sick, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking. I was thinking of Allah’s Power. Actually UGMers were having this endemic disease of HEpatitis A. A lot of my frens were suffering of Hep A. And out of blue, I was having DHF and typhoid. It’s not that I hope I would get a Hepatitis A instead, but I was the only one who had typhoid fever and DHF. DHF was actually an endemic disease about half a year ago among my frens. I can’t regret of not doing of my Neurology exam properly. I can’t regret of not sitting for OSCE examination with my frens because I was being warded at that time. I can’t sigh to all this. It’s Allah’s will. Kun fa ya kun. But I have to thank Allah for making me realize that life is short. I have to appreciate health as much as I can. Do not procrastinate on things u can do earlier. Whatever happen remember to Tawakal kepada Allah. Allah’s know what’s best for us.

At this entry I would like to thank all my frens Especially Pong n Aqilah who had taken really good care of me when I was at the Hospital. Thanks to UPIMI, PERMAI,n Isa also for lending their money for me to clear up the hospital Bills. Big bunch of thanks to friends who had visited me and gave me loads of food. When other people getting thinner due to sickness, I was getting fat instead.ehehe..Thanks to All. I pray that u guys be granted Jannah by Allah SWT. I’Allah.

Wassalam